Why an admission of being weird? Because other side of me lives in a different world. A world that amazes me, yet partly scares me.
I even branded myself for being an AUTISTIC, and some friends do agree, a person living in his/her own world. Living in a world not anyone can simply understand. A world where I can find silence. A world with no gossips, no pressure, no one cares, no one to brag, no one to nag,no one to demand, no one to insist, no one to follow but a world I call my own. A world of isolation which is just to be left ALONE.
If things won't affect me - why should I care. You don't like me? Then "Thank you" that's all I have for you. You hate me... then I can treat you as if you don't exist. You don't understand me, then I am not forcing you. You judge me, well you're not HIM. To make the story short, I won't bother much on things that has nothing to do with my way of living.
I do believe that "No man is an island" yet there were moments desiring to be in the state of seclusion. "Depressive Mode?" A yes and a no, sometimes and maybe. But it is as simple as keeping myself away from the crowd. You can see me, but can not talk to me. You can hold me, but its just a smile I can give you.
Its the exact opposite of my dominating personality - the friendly side of me. Who dares to talk to strangers, give smile with some one I barely knew, who's willing to lend a helping hand, to make the party rock, who loves to make people laugh, make you nuts.
Confused? Someone difficult to get along with? Only friends who are willing to discover will get the best answer.
Not to mention my interest in some paranormal experiences and some sort of stuff that adds to the bedlam of the other side, I really love these beyond natural things for some good reasons, namely:
- Reincarnation - for mission undone
- Astral Projection - which I experienced once
- Past Life Regression - done out of curiosity (3 past lives)
- Third-Eye - afraid to open but almost open
- Soul mates - to share what you call LIFE
- Zodiac Signs - to basically know a person
- Animal Year Signs - are we going to make fortune?
- Dreams - would love to learn how to interpet
